Samantha’s birthday rememberance went really nice. We had about 15 people at the house to do a butterfly release in her memory. As hard as it was it turned out beautiful. October is a difficult month with having her birthday and Halloween. Halloween was always Samantha’s favorite time of year. Last year as sick as she was she had herself a great time. It is the last real good memory we have to hold on to. We will never forget the smile she carried for two hours and the beautiful sound of her laughter.
So here we are another month has passed us by and we enter month 8 without our precious little girl. It seems to get harder and harder. I don’t know who says it gets easier with time but so far I can say they are wrong. It could be the time of year that is making things more difficult. I still can not believe what has happened in the last year and a half. I know I keep saying that but it is truly unbelievable. We will continue taking it one day at a time, it is all we can do to get us through. I have read this poem on several childrens websites and it really captures the feeling we live with every day.
After the death of a child...
Please, don't ask me if I'm over it yet.
I'll never be over it.
Please, don't tell me she's in a better place.
She isn't here with me.
Please, don't say "at least she isn't suffering."
I have yet to come to terms with why she had to suffer at all.
Please, don't tell me you know how I feel-
unless you've lost a child yourself.
Please, don't ask me if I feel better.
Bereavement isn't a condition that clears up.
Please, don't tell me "at least you had her so many years."
What year would you choose for your child to die?
Please, don't tell me that "God never gives us more than we can bear."
Please, just say you are sorry.
Please, just say you remember my child.
Please, just let me talk about my child.
Please, mention my child's name.
Please, just let me cry."
Our little friend Shelby Grover lost her battle with this horrible “monster” on the 18th at the tender age of 3. Please keep her parents, Nicole and Lee in your prayers as they face the difficult days ahead.
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As always thank you for checking in on us.
With Love,
Audra, Kurt, Christopher, & Jason
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